Better Place ~~

For everyone that has come and go in my life, thank you so much for being there beside me and have taught me about life either in an implicit way or vice versa. You guys are so awesome in your very own way. without you guys I would never be who I am and be accepting who am I right now. It's a short entry here. 

Science Stream??

Mesti ramai adik adik yang baru masuk tingkatan 4 *geli pulak tulis adik adik ni* dalam dilema kan nak ambik aliran mana. 'Aku kena ambik aliran sains sebab abang kakak aku ambik aliran sains', 'awak kena ambil aliran sastera sebab awak  kena jadi lawyer macam ayah awak. Senang nanti nak ambil alih firma' yada yada. Sejujurnya, ambil laa apa yang awak minat. Bukan sekadar nak ambil hati mak ayah, sekadar nak ikut kawan, sekadar nak tunjuk hebat kat sedara mara, makcik peah sebelah rumah yang awak ni hebat dan boleh bawak subjek sains tu padahal waktu PMR/PT3 awak punya sains tu sekadar dapat C,D,E. Bukan nak memperlekehkan ke ape ke tapi this is the truth. The sad truth that we need to face it. Haa gitu kau.  Tapi ni laa mentaliti masyarakat sekarang ni. Tak ambil aliran sains tu macam dah gelap terus masa depan tu. 'Awak nak kerja apa nanti kalau tak ambil aliran sains?' Seriously PARENTS? Banyak lagi kot skop kerjaya tu. Luas lagi. Dalam dunia ni bukan ade kerja jadi engineer atau doktor je. Banyak lagi kott kerjaya yang ada. akauntan, lawyer, human resource. And please laa jangan bebankan anak-anak awak tu. Awak dah boleh tau setakat mana kebolehan anak awak tu. Kalau dah math masa menengah rendah pun tak boleh score, macam mana nak handle addmath dengan fizik nanti?  "Addmath tu penting sebab nanti dah masuk U senang" Yeah *roll eyes* memanglaa penting kalau awak ambil subjek Sains jugak waktu dekat U nanti. Sorry to say tapi you guys have such a pathetic mind. Orang sekeliling akan tengok awak yang ambil science stream ni hebat, cerdik. Tapi apa guna awak masuk science stream kalau awak tak mampu nak score? And pada saya laa, takdek guna awak ambil subjek macam fizik, kimia, addmath, biology kalau tak lulus waktu SPM and lepas tu subjek tu tak di tulis pun atas sijil SPM tu. Sangat laa merugikan bila awak dah belajar dua tahun subjek tu tapi tak boleh score lepas tu masuk U awak belajar benda yang takdek kaitan pun dengan aliran yang awak belajar waktu sekolah,  Percayalah, bila dah masuk U ni awak akan rasa sangat bersyukur untuk sambung apa yang awak dah belajar waktu sekolah / matrik sebab awak dah ade basic sikit.  Bukan nak condemn ke nak takutkan ke lepas tu tak payah masuk Science Stream langsung, tapi ni laa yang sebenar-benarnya. And saya sendiri budak Science Stream dan saya dah lalui semua ni. Kalau awak betul betul minat benda tu takpe sebab awak akan sedaya upaya push diri awak untuk score dalam subjek sains tu. Tapi kalau awak minat, kenapa waktu PT3 dulu tak buat betul betul dan tak score? "eleh cakap senang laa ko tak pernah amik PT3, susah tau tak soalan dia" Yes I know benda tu susah. Habis tu tak pikir fizik kimia bio addmath tu susah dia macam mana? Dahlaa sains tu di pecah kepada 3: fizik kimia bio lepas tu maths tu pulak di pecahkan lagi jadi modern maths, addmaths, fizik. Awak fikir ape sekarang ni? Self torture? Lepas tu mula laa merungut susah, menyesal ambil aliran ni yada yada. Apa-apa jelah dik. Tak kisah kalau nak ambil Science Stream tu tapi awak tengok balik result awak, tenung dalam dalam, pikir masak masak. Jangan laa ikut cakap orang lain. mak ayah ke, adik beradik ke. Awak yang nak belajar bukannya diorang. Nanti awak tak boleh nak carry sesuatu subjek tu awak nak rujuk dekat siapa? "Abang tak tau laa dik nak buat macam mana sebab abang tak belajar benda ni". "Mana laa akak tau. Awak yang belajar". Ko rase??? Saya bukan tulis entry ni sekadar suka suka. Tapi ni berdasarkan pengalaman sendiri, pengalaman orang sekeliling. Kepada yang dapat Science Stream and boleh bawak, tahniah and goodluck. Semoga berjaya and one more thing, dalam dunia ni bukan sekadar jadi doktor dengan engineer je. And course lelong dekat U nanti bukan untuk loser je.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !!!

Actually, I wanna rant on something today but today is a new year but I don't want to ruin the new year's mood today. So, happy holiday everyone and has a nice day and a nice year. I pray that all of you have His bless and live with full of happiness and be able to achieve what you wanted to achieve and most importantly, achieve what you haven't achieved last year. I gotta study right now because tomorrow I will start my final exam for the whole week and then, going back to my hometown, meeting my lovely parents, relatives and friends. OMG, you don't know how I missed them, I just didn't show it to them. So, #prayforalya

"I PROMSE..."

Janji, promise, yagsog, Chéngnuò, for me gives a great meaning in my life which means once you have said it, you have to do it or say it whether you capable of it or not. Honestly, I don't really like people use this word or even myself find it hard to say this word to someone else. I don't even say the word "berjanji dan berikrar" in any "akujanji". Maybe some other people can say "I promise" so easily to other and thinking "No, it is just some random words and means nothing", but for me when I start to say "I promise" it comes with some other words like package which is 'responsible'. It makes the person that you have been promise to been waiting and wondering whether you fulfill your promise or not (or is it just me?) I mean, how are you going to keep your promise to your future spouse or even your religion if you cannot keep even a single tiny promise? Even Allah s.w.t keep His promise to us.
There was a boy, my group mate to be exact, texted me saying that he promised to send his part of the assignment by the middle of the night. I foolishly waited for his email, worried that I cannot receive his email due to internet problems. By morning, there was no sign of his email or his text saying that he already sent his part. I felt kinda dissapointed with him as he already promise me and his promise was so convincing. Damn I should not believe him at the first place.

 

Therefore, word of advice; NEVER EVER make any promise if you're not going to keep it. And DON'T foolishly believe their promises.

Communication skills

Hari ni kan hari Rabu, So basically kitorang takdek kelas kat sini dari pagi sampai pukul 2 sebab hari Rabu memang dikhaskan untuk kokurikulum. Hari ni pulak aku belajar pasal kemahiran berkomunikasi a.k.a communication skills, one of the module in the Soft Skills course which is memang aku tak boleh diharap langsung on that. Well, we all Malaysian espacially Malay macam tu kut. Tapi ade satu ayat daripada lecturer tu cakap yang menyebabkan aku terfikir something. Sebenarnya dah banyak kali dengar tapi tak tahu laa kenapa hari ni dia macam masuk sikit dalam hati ni. Tak ingat beliau cakap macam mana tapi ayat dia lebih kurang macam ni
*ahem ahem.*

"students kita ni asyik tunduk and angguk saja. Kami memang dapat banyak complain daripada your senior's supervisor waktu buat practical yang diorang ni lack in communication skills. They know that our students know a lot more tapi pretend that they don't know or act like they can read their mind"

which makes me wonder, apa yang menyebabkan our local students act in that particular way?

 sebenarnya kan communication skills ni kita memang develop dari tadika or even earlier lagi kott. Okay laa  cubalaa kan, cuba kita fikir kejap, zaman sekolah dulu ade tak part kita bagi opinion on something orang lain gelakkan kita or pandang pelik kat kita or cikgu marah kat kita on that point yang kita tak paham atau yang kita nak argue? Biasanya time sekolah menengah laa. Well for me, benda tu happens, a lot. Kalau bukan dekat diri sendiri pun, benda tu jadi kat orang lain macam kawan baik kau sendiri, classmates kau. So bagi mengelakkan untuk rasa seperti dimalukan di khalayak ramai, kau prefer untuk berdiam diri walaupun hakikatnya apa yang dalam hati / fikiran kau tu sebenarnya betul / expected answer from your teacher.

That feeling sebenarnya kau develop dari kecil sampailaa ia meguasai your whole mind espacially in the new environment which leads to other self prblems; low self esteem, lack of confidence level. Ini akan menjadi satu disaster bagi new fresh graduate sebab sekarang ni, nak cari fresh graduate yang dapat dean list every sem, 4.0 every sem, sangatlah ramai. Tapi nak cari fresh graduate yang dean list every sem + excellent in soft skills sangatlah susah. 

So, for me our society yang memainkan peranan penting dalam developing our self esteem. For example, this one boy datang kelas wearing a funny hat.

 The whole class dah pandang semacam dah dekat dia and start talking and laughing to each other on how weird he is sebab dia sorang pakai that funny hat. And then, this one lecturer came to the class to begin his lecture. During the lecture session, the lecturer keep on memerli this boy and the whole class were laughing at him. Maybe budak lelaki tu buat dek je or buat buat tak dengar. Tapi we never know what inside his heart. Dan yag lagi teruk, student yang lain yang introvert jugak akan fikir

'ow aku tak patut buat benda baru depan this bunch of students and lecturer sebab tak nak nanti kena gelak or kena sindir dalam kelas sampai habis lecture session. MALU'

Macam mana nak hilangkan this kind of attitude in our society? For me benda ni tak boleh dihilangkan selagi ada perasaan dalam diri tu nak kutuk or tak boleh tengok orang lain daripada kita sikit. Senang cakap nak kita je yang betul. Orang lain semua tak betul. Termasuk laa yang menulis ni haa. Orang selalu cakap yang kita boleh ubah attitude kita tapi benda tu mustahil sebab our society ni manusia yang ada hati, bukan android yang boleh di update sampai lollipop system. 

Sorry laa entry kali ni saaaangaaaatlaaa bosan tapi this is the reality, the fact yang kita semua tahu but pretend that we don't know/understand. Why am I writing this? Because I'm the one yang takut nak stand up and give my points and pertahankannya sebab takut kena gelak, takut salah, and takut orang perli, mengumpat kat belakang kita. Yes it is the truth that I have to face it by myself. Kalau laa someone boleh baca fikiran aku macam satu watak dalam novel AWAN by syafiq aizat tu, confirm dia boleh memanfaatkan untuk kepentingan diri dia sendiri. 

   

My Turning Point

                        بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم
 
Assalamualaikum

29 Jamadilakhir 1436, 20 April 2015
Inshaa Allah will be my turning point to be a better muslimah. Pray for me In Shaa Allah. Kalau ada apa apa yang masih kurang pada diri aku, tegurlah aku. Pimpinlah aku ke syurga bersamamu.

P/s 20 april tahun gajah tarikh kelahiran Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. manusia yang paling disayangi Allah ❤

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Assalamualaikum

Fuhh fuhh
Uhuk uhuk

Ni blog ke hape ni? Bukan setakat sawang, habuk semua ada. Labah labah siap boleh main sorok sorok lagi.

Okayyy dah makan kerepek. Kang luka lelangit tu.

Tbh, aku suka membaca tapi aku tak pandai nak susun ayat. Cakap pun terabur apatah lagi nak tulis ayat yang berbunga bunga. Sangat laa out..*sigh*
Aku suka tengok lukisan and things related to art tapi tak berapa pandai nak melukis. Even budak kecik lukis kereta pun lagi lawa dari aku lukis. *double sigh*
Aku pandai membayangkan sesuatu tapi tak pandai nak ekspresikan benda alah tu.

Mungkin aku patut bertukar profesion kepada sesuatu yang memberi manfaat kepada aku dan juga ummah sejagat. Amboih ayat tak hengat. Aku rasa aku nak jadi photographer laa. *wink wink*

Don't get me wrong. For God sake memang family aku tentang habis habisan laa kan. So let's just think it as a dream work yang tak mampu untuk digapai. Kahkahkah makan kerepek lagi. Aku rasa dengan cara tu je aku boleh bagitau kepada semua orang apa yang aku nampak. Bak kata Yuna, setiap gambar ada lagu. Gitteww. Dengan bantuan media so sial masa kini sudah tentu dapat membantu niat aku yang suci lagi murni *muntah hijau* untuk me.... aku lupa term apa yang sesuai digunakan. And kalau boleh, aku taknak laa jadi photographer yang amik gamba pmpuan tak cukup kain ke, lelaki yang tunjuk pek 6 ke, boleh gugur iman mak. Aku suka alam. And aku nak kongsikan apa yang aku nampak yang indah indah ciptaan tuhan ni dengan semua orang. Boleh?

Lusa PSPM 2. Doakan aku. Dapat upu uni kat sabah sarawak pun aku terima. K tipu.

Adios amigos